Its hard to believe that one word can make such a huge different and leap in someone's life. Thats what I learned yesterday when I finally came 100% out of the closet. Not something that everyone can do but after getting the support team with me I feel like I can do anything and be who I am without any problems. I feel so much better, and though I have had some people delete me from facebook I wouldnt trade it for anything in the world.
On top of that I have a boyfriend as of Monday and I am so happy because its the guy I have wished to be with for so long and now its come true. Talking for what seemed like an hour or more, catching up on things and how we missed each other a lot. And how we had both gone through a lot and grown since the first time we met. But being asked to be his boyfriend and then being pulled into his arms was like being put into heaven. I am so happy

Spring is here, finally because for some reason it felt like the spell of winter would be here permantely. Though it is not the only thing changing, because I feel myself changing once again and this time I know what what is happening.
For years of most of my life I looked upon a mirror and was barely able to recognize myself, mostly because i had been acting to protect myself from the world. But things are different now, after a year from coming out I realized that it wasnt just my sexuality that was finally out. It was my true self, and for a while I didnt know what was happening but now I do.

My writing has reflected that as well, same as my journals and my story books. Things within me are changing, I no longer crave lustful things, i no longer have crushes. Because they are crumbling away, no longer important and no longer necessary in my life. Because I have grown up, in some way I realize I have grown up more than my friends. Kinda of a scary thing in some way when you realize you are alone on certain matters, but isnt that what makes life exciting.

So in one year I went from a basic average high schooler with barely any look or style and changed to a man who guys can seem to stop hitting on me, friend confide in, artwork comes alive, and books and stories piling up like library books.
I have a family, but I am not talking about a blood one. there is one girl who always seems to brighten anything up in my life and bring the energy and wisdom from the corners of this earth, and shes one of the best. Then there is my other friend who never lets me get a laugh or smile out of life, shes always there for me and we are like brother and sister, not even blood seems to break our growing bond. Then there are my four brothers who put me back on my feet, one is wicked smart, one who seems to show kindness and never anger, another who saves me from danger and the other as crazy as ever but makes me get even the simple things ot of life with a smile.

So thi is my life, and itself is being written on paper and ink and put into my stories as well. I dont think I will ever get enough out of life but I dont think I will ever be the way I was before.

So, I guess a lot has happened lately making my life not only exciting but looked forward to more and more. Ever wish something like a fairy tale could come true or happen in your life? Well I did and surprisingly it actually happened and I am still in a bit of shock.
My best friend told me last Friday that hes had a crush on me since September when we met, and he been thinking of me since. Its funny because we hang out a ton playing video games, going out and about and watching movies, but it wasnt until recently that I noticed he had been giving me hints for a long time.
So I have an amazing boyfriend now, and he makes me feel like I can do anything now, and life is better than it has ever been. Hes also making me feel encouraged to write more, which is good because I have so much written but its all in handwriting and I admit I have been lazy to type it all. But hopefully thing will be different. Life throws things at you, sometimes you really dont know what to expect or to happen.

Life always gets crazy during the holidays, people buying gifts for their loved ones. Music playing in the malls and radios all over the place.
I love snow just as much as the next guy, but things lately just seem to get more and more quick lately. Just this week was thanksgiving then the next day I went to a dance with my best friends and we danced for about 4 hours.

Also with college I have been busy writing as well.
lol I am a writing freak I guess.

One is:

B & W
Bitten Betrayal
X Genes
Fallen Stars
Queer Memoirs


yeah that is a lot of writing. But unlike lots of my friends, these are books. I hate writing short stories for the most part because it bores me. Books never seem to end and its way more exciting. SO hopefully I can get these all done in my lifetime.